Tonight I was at a meeting and we were talking about the fall magazine (deep breaths) and breast cancer awareness and I realized I had not updated everyone as I had promised on my breast cancer.
First, I no longer have cancer. I am cancer free and have been so since the end of December. I found out moments before getting on a plane and heading to South Africa with my entire family for Christmas. We had a wonderful time together and it was great not to have worry and wait for the results while I was gone.
In my post from September I share some things I had learned about having cancer and said things may be different in a few months. I thought I would see what I thought about them.
Listen to the stories of other women. They have a lot to offer and are a great source of support but remember every person is different. Very much this. I had such a easy time. If I told my story as the way it is for most people that would be such an unfair representation of what most women endure.
Many things are not as bad as you thought they would be. Nothing was as bad as I thought.
Many things are worse than you thought they would be. I am not sure what I was talking about here. The only thing that was worse was worrying about the future.
People will try to sell you things that will cure your cancer. All the time. What is this about?
There are some wonderful things Eastern Medicine has to offer that can make this journey a lot easier. Say what you want but peppermint oil, lavender and lemon oil make me happy.
Children in the grocery story ask their parents why you do not have any hair. And also, your puppy licks your head. Weird but true. And a little gross and soggy.
Worrying about how the people you love are feeling about your cancer is one of the most difficult parts of it. Still this.
Cancer repels people. Strangers, yes.
Cancer draws people in. Friends, always.
The possibility of losing my insurance takes my breath away. Y’all, there were some terrifying moments in there. It is always in the back of my mind.
Some days you will feel good and then suddenly you won’t. It is okay to rest and binge watch Netflix. My personal binge go to comfort shows are the West Wing, Parenthood and Gilmore Girls, of course. Still these three.
Cancer is not welcome HERE!!!!!!!!!!
Here are some other things I have learned.
Not everyone agreed with my choices and sometimes they told me I was making the wrong choices for my health. I had to believe in what I was doing.
My hair came back but it is not the same. I am thankful it came back but I have no idea what to do with it. It is much curlier and has some gray in it now. I will figure it out but it not the hair I have had my whole life. It is confusing.
I have become the mammogram police.
I feel both the frailty of life and invincible at the same time.
I am still not going to wear pink. 🙂